Showing posts with label children. Show all posts
Showing posts with label children. Show all posts

Thursday, June 18, 2009

The Fear: Childbirth and Childcare

I have a fear of childbirth. I have a fear of getting pregnant; feeling like my body has been taken over by a foreign being and labouring for hours to get this foreign being out of my body.

I am fearful that I live in a part of the world where there is a very strong probability of dying in childbirth.

I am scared that after labouring for hours to have this child I will have the sole responsibility of caring for the child. I am scared that I will be the only one who will wake up in the night when my child cries, that I will be the only one who feeds this child, the one who is the primary carer.

I do not hear my biological clock tick yet I am scared that I may regret not having a child.